HOSTELIER

Slowly though steadily im gettin accustomed 2 be aptly called a nomad....first kota...which waz more of self accepted jail...though i used 2 hate it wen i was ther...now i really cherish those days..
all da hardships..mental breakdown have helpd me tremendously..its ritely quoted that da best way 2 tackle hardship is ba facin them....though da outcome wasnt favourable...and as faet would have it i waz back packed 2 nitk,surathkal...(dept:electrical and electronics engineering)
dun noe y but hostel life seemed all da mor challengin n i decided 2 accept it...postponin ma stay at home sweet home ba anoder 4 yrs..which i suppose is goin 2 be extended ba atleast half a decade mor..
in these 1.5 yrs at nitk i have learnt bout life ba leaps n bounds probably more dan wat i have thru ma entire life span,,,panickin over da most miniscule of thins...remainin unmoved against the deadliest of calamities...
came 2 cllg as every oder normal guy...grades is wat all i craved 4..very much focussed,well scheduled,sceptic of strangers....little waz i aware that sooner r later a hurricane was supposed 2 whirlwind ma lyf...as time progressed. schedules went 4 a toss,days began at 12am,attendances in classrooms began 2 get fictitious,stangers began 2 get sceptic at ma sight..!!!...."Grades" da only base of ma existence in da cllg didnt seem 2 make an iota of a difference....results of 1st sem wer out and it came no suprised that ma performance was mediocre..a months break an up came SEM 2..
Raggin was gettin rampant..and ma unruly rash attitude wasnt gettin me ne favours 4m ma superiors consequently i used 2 b punished mor frequently....kept on breakin new records 4 sit ups nd push ups..400 of them in a single go..!!! phew...!!Though CRICKET was da activity that i was takin up all ma precious time...extereme fast bowlin aided wid ultra nutritious mess food coupled with greasy dhaba food wer takin their toll on da body..soon i encountered a traumatisin stay at hospital...wid a "hiv" scare..!! gosh i juz came bak 4m hell..nd tats wer u figured da importance of life,family n frnds..the teen in me was now maturin.....got accustomed wid a lot of new ppl...new workin cultures...in da mean ym v formed the "prestigious LELE group"...group of 8 cool guys..aimless n stranded..all wantin 2 enjoy da moment...nd soon hangin seemed all da more fun..tym flowed n came terrorisin end sems....a late uprisal,caution nd trips 2 library saved me 4m da blushes..SEM 2 over..25% engineer olreasy..!!
off 2 mum 4 three months..all i do is recuperate,rejuvenate..nd a lot of yoga,gymin,hoggin n cricket..!!!
SEM 3: the aura is back..new roomie...new rooms..new laptop..new 2 dein hailed as SIR ba juniors..yea raggin da juniors seemed 2 b da latest passion..though got fed up of it way 2 early as it is an agony 2 both da parties..!!suprise suprise..!!come september we are presented wid internet facilities in da rooms....ORKUT,SCRAPS,MESSENGER,GMAIL...became da buzzwrds...!!thn came goa...oh ma gawd thats wer i understood da meanin of unadulterated fun...manh its awesum...especially wid all ma dear buddies...phew u must experience it once...
slowly but surely our bonds wer strengthenin...time was mercurial....acads wer in frenzy...nuthin new though..was gettin 2 terms why branch was labelled as da toughest of all....relentless profs,gruellin schedules..nd pathetic grades.....finally ma interest in studies began 2 resurface..wid grace of da lord ther was an inprovement in ma academic performance
...nuthin mor satisfactory than a gud grade card..!!
of da time spent i hav learned a few things bout hostels nd lyf associated wid it...would quote thm as follow...

GUIDELINES 4 A SUCCESSFUL JOURNEY AS A HOSTELIER...
1.Always keep da money in da pocket n not in ya wallet bcuz u neva noe wen a new debitor/creditor is gonna appear..
2.Neva suppose urself 2 b too smart...bcuz u r gonna disproved very soon
3.Everyone think he can easily top da class provided he studies...da truth is dat possibilityof da event occurin is 2.67%
4.Neva try 2 have da last word bcuz u may as well get one..
5.Nerdify ya self wen a faculty member iz encounterd..
6.Ven in front of gals dun try n show off bcuz..ur r makin a mickey outta ur self
7.No matter wat da situation is be OPTIMISTIC...

Thicks clouds hav covered da sky,dun noe wer lif's gonna take me...think dat im caught up in a cage...acads suffocatin me...profs ready 2 crucify ne moment...sports da only refuge....fate is chokin me...mess food catalyzing da process....deep within i noe ican break da shackles..... sooner r later ill rise...i shall rise 2 da sky.....clearin da haze i shall proclaim ma self VICTRIOUS

Fear

"A man without fear, is either naive or too stupid...either ways it amounts up to the same" .
U may not be in sync with this quote,but the truth is not altered by your opinions isnt it..??
Of the plethora of emocotions that the human mind exhibits Fear is one of the most peculiar and fascinating...
Fears emanate from two sources either physical or pyschological.Physical fear may be the likes of fear of death,fear of heights,water,fire and many other umpteen types,mainly regarding materialistic forms.Their roots are the mental scars etched in brain due traumatic experiences,woeful past,dwindling future or just the thought of agony the physical structure has 2 contend with once the line is crossed...viz..fear of falling from a height..lots said and done there is little which we can do in order to avert this kind of phobia..
However the fears which are far more dangerous have just the mind at its crux.They are manifested in various forms some are so lethal that they can leave wounds so deep to the extent of rendering a person of no use.fear craves on dishonesty.disobedience or anything that doesnt go well with the human conscience
Fear of failure,fear of success,fear of performance,fear of being rejected.
The esteemed fear their reputation, the powerful fear their salutation.
The pauper fears his hunger,the acclaimed fears his own success.
Fear has engulfed everyone,its a dark world once fears creep in.
But things have to be ameliorated,things have to change for the better
Its not the always the audaciously machoism that flushes out the fear,its the fresh aura of confidence that clears the fiery skies and brings in a scintillating sunshine.Fear thrives on lack of self belief,low self esteem.
Its said that a man who conquers all his fears conquers the universe.hmmm..lots said..?
Man who is not afraid of himself shall not fear anything, because given a situation he can always pick himself up from the dumps and rework the magic again,he does not lie to himself, he isnt ashamed of himself.A person with low self esteem can never be fearless at the max he can console himself that things could have been worser...
"A man who fears for his life will defend it, a man who fears for his country will fight for it.
A man who fears for his future, will improve today..."
-Quintessence